i think i dont know whats the aim of zingo alr. i forgot where are we heading, what are we aiming for. i cant find the common goal anymore, i need some confirmation. 

if zingo is heading towards going professional. i think maybe the 'professional' we are heading towards is not really what i was expecting. 

professional - i think this is just a status, there are many classes of professionals. you can be damn good in something but dont really care much about other not so important stuff. ok for zingo's case its drumming. 

i think we need to do anything that is within our reach to get closer to that goal rather than just go with majority and what they feel is more comfortable. to me, there must be some things that must be done, need to be done. a lot of this must/needs have becomed wants. maybe some people just wanna get the title of 'professional', just to be good in drumming. i want something more than that, i want zingo to be good in alot of other stuff that earns the respect of other people. maybe it could be image, organisation, manners, responsibility.. whatever. anyway, im being fking honest here, i dont think our drumming is anywhere near professional. our skills have been stuck at this level for dont know how long and it doesnt really get anywhere. honestly im kind of fed up with it i dont wanna care so much about it. i mean who really take the initiative to pracise at home in hope of coming up with a better performance? chunann said that no one really practises at home, kinda true. so why are we still doing all this? are we going to be complacent? lets not waste time here, lets go some where higher. more effort is all it takes, get out of your fucking comfort zone. 

and who is the leader of zingo again? i kinda forgotten alr. i dont know who to look up when i got some doubts to clarify. who is the in charge of the performance? why does zingo seem to have so many leaders? stop confusing me, i need an answer. even america needs a leader.