tired and worned out as fcuk.

this holiday aint like a holiday. and i cant imagine having to go through this for 2 weeks with school on going.

my time table is expected to be 8 to 5 everyday. or til 3 on some lucky days. so tuesday theres gym, thursday drama, saturday drum + drama, sunday wushu. lol there's no time for rest at all. its gonna be stress + stress + stress + stress so on..

and theres like 70% chance that the rehearsals gonna get more frequent and stressful when school opens.

this is really not the type of holidays i was hoping for when i was back in the days when i walked out of the exam hall with my mind relieved of stress.

BUT HEY CMON IF U HAVE THE PASSION FOR IT THEN YOU CAN DO IT!

sometimes i ask myself why do i keep going on in zingo.. i've seen edvwin's post on his blog about friends in the group and thats definitely one of the points why i stay in zingo.. yeah we have fun doing the stuff we do.. today we crapped alot and made up alot of funny shit, i realised laughter is a really good way to relieve stress. the more we talk cock, the more i feel relieved of stress.

the happiest times in drumming was when i was in sec sch, still innocent and dont know when to shut my trap. all of us were like that, we have all the fun we want during performances, rehearsals, whatever. although we always get scolded, we dont know how to worry about it and reflect on it. its just like " aiya forget it la, he sux".

honestly i want to be back in the days of sec sch life but sadly i can only think back about the sweet memories and wont be able to re-live it. we all grow up day by day, now we need to deal with reputation, professionalism, behaviour, etc..

and now we need to 'upgrade' ourselves by performing in a play which is drama mama and learn new stuff like wushu, expression, mood, etc..

but still, when i ask myself why do i stay in zingo.. i seriously have no idea. am i just there for friends while going thru so much stuff to fulfil another person's dream? am i there hoping for a chance to have a taste of sec sch performance? or am i there because of the one and only reason that i love drumming so much?

well i think i used to love drumming alot but after so much happened, i think its just lame for me to pin so much hope and be so ambitious in drumming.

i dont know why i stay in zingo, but i know for sure i dont stay in zingo to wear myself out.