yeah im back from hong kong... for quite some time now. i wanted to blog after getting the pictures taken in hongkong but its still not ready yet. =\ yeah hongkong was fun, bought a lot of stuff, shoes, shirts, pants, socks, belts, specs, watch, keychains, scarf.. etc etc. my cousins are doing fine, my aunties and uncles are doing fine too. its good to see that. i learnt that it takes a very long time for me to warm up during cold weather. i was playing badminton with my uncle and my legs were like so stiff, i thought i took quite a big step but in the end i couldn't reach for the shuttle cock. it feels damn cosy to live in my uncle's house, even though the house is super small compared to home in singapore, its very lively. this atmosphere makes me wanna go back to hongkong every year. eating reunion dinner with grandma, going out with grandma's sister [i dunno what to call her in english] feels great. grandma's health is much better than last year, she's very lively and cute. lol my grandma's cute.. really.

i love my relatives in hongkong!

im not having the greatest mood today. it seems that someone really has an influence on me, maybe its this case. maybe its not. i dont know. well i really hope i wont be influenced to be a worse person, i wanna be me. a better me everyday. i hope i can be like this.

well there are many times when people are down and this may be due to a lot of factors, say stress, this is a big problem. i think maybe the confusion and stress is making him act weirdly. maybe he thinks that he doesn't need to show a good example and be a role model since he isn't gonna be the leader of the troupe soon. is that why he acts so strangely? is that why he acts like he doesn't give a shit for how other people feel?

yeah i could forgive him for hinting that his troupe mates that they are slow in learning and want them to focus more. but what in the world is scolding me a slow fuck in a dota game for? oh, okay. i'm not supposed to be unhappy about this kind of trivial matters, im a very easy guy. yeah i dont care about this kind of shit normally, seriously i dont know why im so sensitive today. come on tony! he's your friend for more than 6 years! dont mind him scolding you a slow fuck in a small little dota game man! its only the f word! its only a small little dota game! dont be SO SENSITIVE YEAH?! TAKE IT EASY!

i was thinking, if he could be pek cek about me being slow in a game and quit the game. can i be pek cek about myself screwing up in performances and quit the troupe? maybe i can, cause im a member of the troupe, i should follow the examples set by the higher authorities. maybe i can screw up in thursday and saturday's performance and then i can quit the troupe.
well of course i wont do this, i know whats right and whats wrong. i know i should give it my best shot in every performance. then why do i type this kind of shit here if i wont be doing this? well of course this post has a purpose. it also has many other positive points. 1. to show how much i love my family 2. to quickly get rid of my bad mood

i dont really expect the purpose of this post to be fulfilled cos i dont think he will do what i think would be right. he is always right. everything he does has a purpose and we should believe in him. well i think that is what he thinks.

there are many ways to do things that will produce the same result but the process is different. this process can be enjoyable, full of hatred, hurtful and many more emotions of different levels according to which way one chooses to do things.

as a leader, make damn sure you choose the best way you do things to achieve the result that is in your mind so as to let everyone in the team get the best process and result.

honestly i dont think your way of doing things now is the best way. its hard to let others believe in you after what you have done.

maybe im too sensitive to this. maybe i should just shut my trap. but aiya its my blog anyway. heck care, better not to think so much about this matter. i'll see how it goes, i'll try to stay neutral. politics may rise up soon. =\

to the homies at macdonalds during the night. sorry for my bad attitude, i just wanted to try out the feeling of giving attitude anytime i wanted to. lol. im joking, i was not in a good mood. i was too sensitive. i hope you guys understand.