anyway studying is really taxing on my mind, it always was. lucky i havent experienced that not being able to concentrate and the blurry vision that i encountered the last time i mugged. well, i hope i will never experience it again, it doesnt feel good at all. and it hinders my mugging progress!

i have to wait til thursday to see my sweetheart again :(

i think im really lucky. i thought maybe the connection was only a one sided thing on my part and that you interact with anyone like this. i thought that if i told you how i feel about you then i would end up with a plain, if not awkward friendship if you didnt feel the same way too. i was afraid, so i didnt. but the feeling gets stronger and i keep thinking of ways to maybe hint to you my feelings for you, maybe in actions or words. i didnt want to lose anything and hell, if there was an insurance for this i would have bought it. and then came the game of question and answer, the most adrenaline pumping, heart racing Q & A session i have ever been in. when i gave my answer to your final question, i wasnt confident at all, but the tone in your voice gave me hope.

im so lucky to have you not walking away from me and instead walking together with me now. i feel so lucky, blessed, happy, delighted, glad, and all the words that can fit in here.