IT IS SUCH A WARM DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! IN MANY WAYS.

ok i was looking forward to going to school today and i really enjoyed learning and doing stuff in mech practical and sleeping thru half of the OM lecture but still understand what the lecturer's talking about.

and the best part was going to the library and borrow more tv series after returning them. i got to the counter and asked the lady whether i can return them at the counter so they could be processed straight away, allowing instant loans. and she said yes in a polite manner, normally she would say 'you go outside and return'. GREAT RIGHT!!

ok then i went down to the media section and got the last box of 24, season 2 and first box of friends! i realised i didnt bring my admin card cause i brought another bag to school today so i tried my ez link card and scanned the bar code, WOW IT ASKED ME FOR MY PIN, MUST BE USABLE RIGHT? ok so i keyed in my pin number and it said library card could not be found, wtf i was so disappointed. i thought of going home and coming back to school to get 24 and friends cause i really wanna watch :(

then i realised my friends are still in school at the gym. so i called them up, no answer. what could i expect? they're working out, who the heck brings a handphone inside a gym? ok so i had no choice but to head to the mrt station but then my phone rang, MR WANG CALLED AND ASKED ME WHATS THE MATTER! WOOHOO i told him what happened and then i walked all the way to the gym to get borrow his admin card. i felt heart-warmed when he agreed to borrow me his admin card, maybe cause the weather was damn warm. (ok secret, i walked passed the pool on the way to the gym and i looked at the people swimming and i was like smiling cause i like swimming also but the problem was that they were all guys then this guy at the wall of the pool was like staring at me in a weird manner :( )

ok so after that i headed to the library, ONLY TO REALISE I FORGOT TO ASK FOR WANG'S PIN! SHIT MAN I GOTTA WALK BACK TO THE GYM IN THIS WEATHER!!!! i tried to call him but his phone was in his bag so i had to walk to the gym and ask.

aiya but it was all worth it cause i got to borrow the dvds after all that warm shit. drank a bottle of cold water, damn shiok man! (is this post getting long?)

ok then after that i headed home, then off to RP! it was first day of Momentum, RP's annual dance festival. (in a commercial tone) and when i was walking down the shelter i saw my fellow drummers waving to me so enthusiastically, it warmed my heart more :)

yeap today is really a great day. had free ticket and free mcspicy meal, HAHAHA!

free ticket usable for tmr also, HAHAHAHAHAHA!

ok cya!

recently i found out that my school library is so damn cool

it actually has dvds of tv series like heroes, lost, prison break, gossip girl, battlestar galactica, 24, friends, grey's anatomy, law and order, smallville, my name is earl, two and a half men, csi, ALOT LA!!!!!!!!

and then my lecturer brought us to this mini theatre at the library and we watched a short movie called Fighter Pilot : Operation Red Flag on blu ray, omg man blu ray is really damn clear. its like fighter jets flying in the theatre (ok exaggerated)

yeap i just borrowed season 2 of 24. so many more seasons to go. 3 4 5 6 7?

and i only got 1 week of loan time for dvds, quite dumb huh. nvm i got the ripper to work alr so its all great :D:D:D:D:D:D

and i found out that i only have 3 modules with mid semester test, GREAT! :D

oh but i have 2 tests which arent MSTs next week, gotta get ready for it. they're both kinda fun, one is a telephone call roleplay for comm skills for work and another is my DRAMA TEST!!!!!!! WOOHOO DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! IM IN SAME TEAM AS TRICIA FOR FINAL PRODUCTION!!!!!!!!!!! (ok, exaggerated as well)

i seem to be in a good mood today, must be the good food at dover mart. haha!

yes life has been a fucking rollercoaster this week.

i thought today was a great day for a change.

cheerful friends who pester me just the right amount to make me feel existant but not irritate me and tolerates my random punching. sorry for punching your backbone by accident, bert.

and wow, zac actually turned around and responded to me when i called him while he was leaving the train. well we exchanged goodbyes with eye contact today.

i feel so alive today. i felt even more alive just a while ago.

my school sent an attendance warning letter to my mom and she scolded me like what she'll do anyway. yes i have been trying really hard to get my fucking lazy ass up in the morning and go to school on time and try not to skip any lessons but who'd believe me? the letter is evident enough that im just a 18 year old with a childish mindset who doesnt want to go to school and just wants to play.

yes its a lonely road. i really fear being alone. i hate the feeling that no one is there to support me, just saying some simple motivational words to push me. the moment i realised no one really knows how i feel, a lot of emotions start to gush into my mind. and i feel so alive, so full of emotions. all mixed up together. sometimes i wanna cry, sometimes i wanna punch my tv screen, sometimes i really lose hope. can i really take this? can i really be this alive?

well i know im almost at my limit. i cant handle any more shit, i might just snap.

haha, like a rubberband right, nu er?

ok im going to bathe and sleep now.

i might just cry myself to bed tonight.

good night to any of you. it probably wont be a good one for me.

i wanna punch a wall til my knuckles bleed
i wanna kick a chair til my feet swells
i wanna shout til my lungs give way
i wanna meddle with broken glass til my hands bleed
i wanna cry til i am rid of all this lousy feelings

but my best bet is to sleep and wake up to a whole new me.

ok i really gotta buck up and work hard. i may get barred from exam if this carries on. fuck.

today i achieved my goal of having 5 meals in a day.

had the kopitiam style bun set in the morning, had 2 half-boiled eggs, one kaya butter bread and a hot drink.

then after lesson i went to eat chicken chop with rice, then my group and i went to secure a project and a supervisor for it, like finally!

ok but now the thing is we are super behind time, we should have started since week 1 and its alr week 5 now. whats cool about this project is that it is a NUS project so we are told that we will be going down to NUS quite often once we engage in this project :D but i dont wanna imagine how tedious it would be to travel down to NUS from my house during the holidays :(

oh then after the securing the project and stuff i headed back home! then sophia asked me if i wanna eat late lunch so i said ok cause i was shopping for manuscripts at semb popular. went to yishun popular after that and i found the kind that can be taken out sheet by sheet so i returned the book form one and bought the other one. (sounds confusing?)

yeah but the aunty took quite long while doing the returning procedures and stuff so sophia came up to popular instead. had subway and chatted for like 3 hours plus, aiya aunties like to talk so i have to listen, HAHAHAHAHA! yeah but it felt great la, chatting with a friend i've not seen in such a long time and not directly asking whether she is single and if i can send her home, HAHAHAHA! blame me for being dumb for being influenced by people making fun of me.

yeap so i went home after that and i ate dinner!

then after that my mom bought me bread from outside and i ate while watching american idol! DAMN SHIOK!!!! adam makes kris sound damn powerless when they sang the same song. KRIS IS SO DAMN COCKY! NO RESPECT FOR SIR SIMON COWELL, SIR!!! MIND YOU!

ok what a fun day, gotta do group discussion now. year 3 is so busy. C YA(DUCK)!

Finish Realize-ing

Finish drama homework (SHIT I ALMOST FORGOT)

Find out dates of intensive practice and rehearsals for momentum and decide if i can perform. (seriously damn tired)

Practise scales

Practise swimming

GO TO SCHOOL, DAMN IT!

The 3 shows for Singapore Arts Fest opening is over!!

i feel so free and light now!

although i should be feeling very deprived of slacking time cause monday is here in a blink of an eye.

ok im super glad that the tonight's (last night) show was the best out of the 3 shows we did, it was really great. im really proud of the group.

review on friday's show : ok.

review on saturday's show : not bad.

review on sunday's show : HAHAHA OMG WTF FUCKING GREAT STUFF!!!!!

ok pardon my language, i use this language to make myself more believable (drama class stuff)

and yes, i can curse and swear in drama class, HAHA!

ok the overall experience of the Arts Fest opening was a great one.

friday felt really bad cause of the bad weather, it was very humid and warm. i felt dizzy after play the first part and kept losing my focus. result? many mistakes and faults :(

ok then we were granted permission to use the main stage for our performance, this was just the greatest news i heard from the organiser but i was worried about the stage being too small for our formation. thanks to mr flexible djw we made adjustments and performed on the stage.

last night's show? great! everything was well planned from 2pm to the end of the whole thing. we had a lot more time for stuff and i think it really contributed to the ability to get into performance state. im still very glad about last night's performance. we shook the earth (stage) while performing, HAHA!

got some pictures of the performance with ruohan including mr goatee guy, HAHAHA!

havent got them yet so i think i'll post a few when i get them! UNTIL THEN, C DUCK!

Hi new friend, you seem better than my old friends.

Hey old friend, you're still a great friend!

Oh old friend, you got new friends.

Haha new friend, you're now my best friend.

Hey old friend, i didn't know you're such an asshole.

Hey old friends! i feel like we're still buddies like before!

Hello new friend! i like you! you're so fun to be around.

Oh new friends, you are so funny!

Hah old friend!! you're an old auntie alr!

Hi, new friend! you're my pal!

Hey old friends, nice to see you again!

Hey old friend! so you can recognise me under daylight! haha!


so many new friends and so many old friends.

while old friends make new friends,

i make new friends too.

its so amusing to see how friendships change with the times.

im sorry and sad that i lost some friends

but im so glad i made some great ones in my life too.

(dedicated to all my great friends <3 )

OI STOP SLEEPING AND WAKING UP SO LATE!!!!!!!

GO TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

LAZYBUM

hello, so it seems that every saturday is a super tiring day for me cause i have drum practice from 9am to 9pm.

honestly i really feel drained from all the training and practice, hope to get a damn good rest after arts fest.

ok, so my 'be a good boy' plan started from wednesday and i only had to keep up with that by going to school on thursday cause friday was a public holiday. may i keep up with this plan forever. and i just did homework, HAHAHA! my friend told me there was homework 2 hours before the submission deadline (i didnt know because i wasnt a good boy boy and i ponned school) and so i did my homework and submitted it just now. (sounds really good but actually it only took 10minutes)

and i didnt wake up in time for drumset lesson today, screw that. that is one reason i dont like to be drained out on saturdays. i should really put more time and effort into my studies like what my mom said. marc reminded me that the thing that really has the potential to give me a job and bring in cash is my education, not anything else.

so i slept til 2 plus today and i woke up, ate my lunch. played guitar and then my mom asked me to study which is kind of stupid cause there isnt anything to study unless i am a crazy mugger. anyway i just played dota and watched bedtime stories and wow... dinner's ready.

WHOOPS X MEN TIME! enjoyed my dinner with mom and the xmen, haha! the movie was damn engaging, i didnt know it was alr 1.5 hours later when i saw the final fight scene. damn shiok la! *thumbs up* poor nikki couldnt catch it! :( (HAHAHA!)

hmm i dont really seem to have the motivation to finish reading 'speaking your mind' so im reading another book which is way more interesting.

I AM SO EXCITED FOR TMR! IM GOING TO FIND MR MUSTAFA, HAHAHA!