正的咧! 我早就应该用中文更新我的部落格了。哈哈哈，应该没有人会把blog称为部落格吧~

XX的， 今天本来会和惊鼓人打羽毛球的， 可是没场地让我们打。。 后来决定打篮球，可是XX的下雨天好像跟我们不和，不想让我们打篮球 =（

今天和爸去山顶茶餐厅吃午餐， 然后到中正帮忙。。 吃了晚餐就回家了。。 超无聊的。。 早知道没篮球打就不去中正帮忙了。。 哈哈哈

回到家还有什么好做的？ 当然是玩dota啦~ 这几天拼命似的打电动啦。。 每次放假都少不了电动的咧。

不知道明天有没有地方去。。 希望有，可是同时想好好在家里做家务。。 没打错啦。。 就是做家务，因为妈份付的。。 不得不听

突然像起。。 明晚要去nyjc看我们的白云岗。。 今年好像是和幻影神针有关的。。 反正超想看的啦。

就写到这。。 我累了，而且用中文打post不是我想象中的容易。。哈哈。。

p.s. 我发现用中文时内容大改变。。 怪怪的。。 语气也变了。。 变温柔了。。 哇哈哈！（神经病）

over due pics from trip to hong kong! i havent got those taken with relatives.. =(

no more badminton tmr! bball tmr with zingo!

things seem ok now. i feel alot better after today. things are ok at home. i seem to be so controlled by emotions.

currently looking for a job thats 5 days a week .. i wanna work and earn some money!

maybe tmr going to eat lunch with dad.. hope we're going to eat something good! =D

the feeling of everything becoming meaningless is so scary. i guess we really cant afford to lose someone that is so dear to us else everything becomes meaningless.

im used to look forward to everything in the future. but now i dont know how to plan my future. someone help me!!! u could just offer me a job and let me take it up so i have something that keeps me busy. lol.

i was so nervous and scared that my results for this sem will drop. i had a great 3.85 gpa out of 4 last sem and i was very happy with it. but last sem i slacked alot compared to the previous sem and i kept pon lesson and applied for loa with lame reasons. (funny thing is the loa-s all got approved)
the results were just released and posted to me by email. once i saw the second digit of my result i was damn happy. take a look at the stuff that motivates me to correct the slacking attitude in year 2.

Singapore Polytechnic 2007/2008 S2 Examination Results

Student ID: 0709929
Name: FOOK HIU TUNG

Module Code - Credit Unit - Grade
---------------------------------
EE3115 - 4 - A
MS6121 - 4 - A
MM1016 - 4 - A
MM1305 - 4 - A
SP0501 - 2 - A
MS6506 - 4 - A
BA004B - 2 - B
LC0518 - 2 - C+



SEMESTER GPA: 3.808
CUMULATIVE GPA: 3.826

ALLOWED TO CONTINUE IN THE COURSE

- This email is for notification purpose and not an official copy of the examination results.
- This is a computer generated email. Please do not reply to it.

sx says he continues to 'battle' for zingo because he believes we can make it big. i dont have the confidence though.. maybe if we have some really good recruits then i could convert to a backstage crew and then zingo can make it big.

seriously i had played drum for a few years alr but it was all without a long term aim. it was only learning new scores, getting better in drumming and performances. i didnt thought of making it big, like reputation and all that stuff. after sx gave that talk on sat, i was given a big slap on the face by reality. i am in a performing group, there are a lot of 'inside stuff' that we dont have. we dont have enough discipline, efficiency and lots more. i didnt develop on all these factors cause i was still in the cchy drum group kind of mood. since i am now in zingo, there are a lot of things i have to take extra care of. we need to watch our behavior, watch our language, watch our body language, watch our attitude. we need to act like professionals.. or else we will never make it big. we need to become matured and not to be called kids. not to be like those childish grown ups playing with lasers at the dinner on sat. (thank god zingo isnt that childish)

my standard is not your standard. this creates the expectation you have from me. i know this is a good thing and will make me improve.

but you chose the wrong words to use on me and the effect is magnified when u said the words in the wrong time. i think its the worst time to say those words. this has discouraged me to perform for the group.

those words make me think. "yeah im not good enough. i dont know why the heck i should continue doing this, after so many years of work, im still not good enough." "maybe i should never even started drumming since i have sweaty palms."

my sweaty palms really do destroy my ambition in doing well in drum.

2 major performances over! stress is gone! its my first time in zingo playing as the centre.. its very stressful cos if i cock up everyone will cock up. its a relief there isnt any screw-ups in these 2 performances. =D

lol i was supposed to go to seletar cc with edvwin but i woke up at 3... im just too darn tired.

anyways some pics from the performances.

performance tmr! i got my new specs, contact lens!

trying to master the skill of wearing contact lens.. lol. its hard!

yeah im back from hong kong... for quite some time now. i wanted to blog after getting the pictures taken in hongkong but its still not ready yet. =\ yeah hongkong was fun, bought a lot of stuff, shoes, shirts, pants, socks, belts, specs, watch, keychains, scarf.. etc etc. my cousins are doing fine, my aunties and uncles are doing fine too. its good to see that. i learnt that it takes a very long time for me to warm up during cold weather. i was playing badminton with my uncle and my legs were like so stiff, i thought i took quite a big step but in the end i couldn't reach for the shuttle cock. it feels damn cosy to live in my uncle's house, even though the house is super small compared to home in singapore, its very lively. this atmosphere makes me wanna go back to hongkong every year. eating reunion dinner with grandma, going out with grandma's sister [i dunno what to call her in english] feels great. grandma's health is much better than last year, she's very lively and cute. lol my grandma's cute.. really.

i love my relatives in hongkong!

im not having the greatest mood today. it seems that someone really has an influence on me, maybe its this case. maybe its not. i dont know. well i really hope i wont be influenced to be a worse person, i wanna be me. a better me everyday. i hope i can be like this.

well there are many times when people are down and this may be due to a lot of factors, say stress, this is a big problem. i think maybe the confusion and stress is making him act weirdly. maybe he thinks that he doesn't need to show a good example and be a role model since he isn't gonna be the leader of the troupe soon. is that why he acts so strangely? is that why he acts like he doesn't give a shit for how other people feel?

yeah i could forgive him for hinting that his troupe mates that they are slow in learning and want them to focus more. but what in the world is scolding me a slow fuck in a dota game for? oh, okay. i'm not supposed to be unhappy about this kind of trivial matters, im a very easy guy. yeah i dont care about this kind of shit normally, seriously i dont know why im so sensitive today. come on tony! he's your friend for more than 6 years! dont mind him scolding you a slow fuck in a small little dota game man! its only the f word! its only a small little dota game! dont be SO SENSITIVE YEAH?! TAKE IT EASY!

i was thinking, if he could be pek cek about me being slow in a game and quit the game. can i be pek cek about myself screwing up in performances and quit the troupe? maybe i can, cause im a member of the troupe, i should follow the examples set by the higher authorities. maybe i can screw up in thursday and saturday's performance and then i can quit the troupe.
well of course i wont do this, i know whats right and whats wrong. i know i should give it my best shot in every performance. then why do i type this kind of shit here if i wont be doing this? well of course this post has a purpose. it also has many other positive points. 1. to show how much i love my family 2. to quickly get rid of my bad mood

i dont really expect the purpose of this post to be fulfilled cos i dont think he will do what i think would be right. he is always right. everything he does has a purpose and we should believe in him. well i think that is what he thinks.

there are many ways to do things that will produce the same result but the process is different. this process can be enjoyable, full of hatred, hurtful and many more emotions of different levels according to which way one chooses to do things.

as a leader, make damn sure you choose the best way you do things to achieve the result that is in your mind so as to let everyone in the team get the best process and result.

honestly i dont think your way of doing things now is the best way. its hard to let others believe in you after what you have done.

maybe im too sensitive to this. maybe i should just shut my trap. but aiya its my blog anyway. heck care, better not to think so much about this matter. i'll see how it goes, i'll try to stay neutral. politics may rise up soon. =\

to the homies at macdonalds during the night. sorry for my bad attitude, i just wanted to try out the feeling of giving attitude anytime i wanted to. lol. im joking, i was not in a good mood. i was too sensitive. i hope you guys understand.

i'll be flying to hong kong tmr afternoon.. this day came faster than i expected, maybe its because i haven't done a lot of fun stuff that can only be done during holidays before flying to hong kong. i feel like going to more drum practices, going out with ma zingo homies, play late night dota and a lot of stuff.. once i fly to hong kong i wont be able to do all these but of course hong kong would also be fun. but i dont know what to expect from this hong kong trip cause i dont really know what i would be doing. whereas when i am in singapore i know what im going to do and can choose what i wanna do. okay honestly i feel a little insecure flying to hong kong so early, i wanted more time in singapore with my friends and family.. although my mum seem like the only family member, lol.

once i get to hong kong i will shop shop shop! im thinking of buying stuff for my friends but i dunno what to buy for them, this made me realise i dont know my friends enough! =(
and MAY THE ECONOMY OF HONG KONG GET BETTER! so that i can get more cash in my ang paos! i hope all my relatives in hong kong are doing fine and will do better in the future, ok my relatives can come to my blog and view this cause i'll be too shy to say those 4 word cantonese chinese new year wishes. i suck at those, really.. i remembered i had to sort of memorise the phrases when chinese new year is approaching when im young. that feeling kinda sucked, its like mugging for a major exam cause if i did badly i may end up getting lousy results, which is the amount of money in this case. LOL.

i really hope i can take the initiative to interact with my relatives more this trip back cause the last trip i was uber shy i stood around like a mute *note* mutes cannot speak but they can eat.
all my relatives say im too quiet. too quiet. too quiet. too quiet. on the second last day of my trip last year i started to interact more with my cousins and too bad the good times ended fast, by the time i enjoyed their company by a great extent i had to return to singapore =(

lol dont know whether there would be funny stuff happening during this trip, last trip when i bought my nds the lady boss of the shop said to my mum "oh! your handsome son came last week i think" " leng zai, u came with your friends right? you were wearing uniform!" LOL. then my mum said " ya, he came with his friends after school. thanks for telling me that he skipped tuition last week." then the lady tried to help me put in a few good words and i was admiring the superb lying skills the lady had.

hope i have a good trip tmr. cya guys next monday! i'll be back by then!

woo.. went jogging in the morning with ann and edvwin.. my stamina really sux man. i ran from my house bus stop to the mosque there and i couldn't continue running anymore without a rest.

we jogged to the barber to realise it opens at 11am so we went to eat brunch at chongpang. then we chatted for a while before walking back to the barber but it still wasn't open yet! so we sat down at chatted again. ann and edvwin cut the cock hair again.. lol. went home and had a good nap, was really tired sia..

ahh i'll be going to hongkong soon.. i'll be flying there on the 4th and will spend a week there.. this time round its kinda cool cause my mum didnt inform all our friends and relatives there that we are going there earlier this year. woo there will be more time to shop and enjoy the trip there, last year's trip was just rushing to visit all our 'long time no see' relatives. 8 years is really a long time, lol. i wanna EAT THE FOOD THERE! i miss hong kong food so much.. finally i get to taste it again =D

ok i gotta sleep alr, tmr got drum practice.